More of myself

Day after day I ask myself the same question.

And day after day I answer the same thing: “let`s wait and see”.

Someone told me “you are not leaving, you already got roots here”, the funny thing is how can I analyze that.

You know, sometimes we take the decisions based on feelings, thoughts, impulses; but what happens when the decision is a combination of the three? , when you take a chance, but already knowing how it’s going to end?

Well I know what I’m talking about. Sometimes things are not what we expected, so it’s only a matter of time before we decide to do something, to end something.

Fuck!!!

So many times I said “I CAN”, so many times that I tried and tried, but still the same shit.

So now I’m giving me a last chance, a chance to do things right, and if I can’t, well, then the decision worth it.

I’m having those feelings, those needs, those thoughts again.

I need him, but I know that don’t matter what, how much I want or need him he won’t be here, he won’t come to live in this god forsaken place.

He is too much like me and at the same time too different from me.

I can go anywhere for who I love or care, I don’t hesitate, I just do it. He is more intelligent, he searches what is the best.

I won’t make anyone do anything they don’t want to, and besides what's the point in make him come here if I won’t be happy even if he is here.

So the song is a little bit of what I am right know, misunderstood, but not only for others, for myself too, I can’t get to me, I can’t understand what, who or why I am.

So here I leave you Mr. Jon Bon Jovi

Misunderstood

Should I? Could I?
Have said the wrong things right a thousand times
If I could just rewind, I see it in my mind
If I could turn back time, you'd still be mine

You cried, I died
I should have shut my mouth, things headed south, YEAH
As the words slipped off my tongue, they sounded dumb
If this old heart could talk, it'd say you're the one
I'm wasting time when I think about it

Chorus:
I should have drove all night, I would have run all the lights
I was misunderstood
I stumbled like my words, Did the best I could
Damn, misunderstood

Could I? Should I?
Apologize for sleeping on the couch that night
Staying out too late with all of my friends
You found me passed out in the yard again

You cried, I tried
To stretch the truth, but didn't lie
It's not so bad when you think about it

Chorus:
I should have drove all night, I would have run all the lights
I was misunderstood
I stumbled like my words, did the best I could
damn, misunderstood
Intentions good

Guitar Solo

It's you and I, just think about it...

Chorus:
I should have drove all night
I would have run all the lights
I was misunderstood
I stumbled like my words, did the best I could
I HANGING OUTSIDE YOUR DOOR, I BEEN HERE BEFORE
MISUNDERSTOOD
I stumbled like my words, did the best I could
Damn, misunderstood
Intentions good.

I’m mizunderstood